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posted @ Monday, May 30, 2005

so happy. i managed to organise all my files and papers. and i washed my two bags, pencil case and shoe bag. all by myself. =) i nearly died in the bathroom. the bags are so dirty, especially the blue one. after washing, the water was black. really black, like drain water. my mum was laughing at me cos i kept complaining in the bathroom.

yesterday went to help out in the thumbs up event. quite fun. i did the DISC test and found out that i m more of a high C person. actually my score quite average out. D is for direct meaning u feared to be controlled and like to win all the time. I stands for interactive meaning u like involving many people in whatever u do and usually the talkative people. S is for stable meaning u like to have a routine and u fear uncertainty. C is for careful meaning you always ask why and fears criticism of your work. actually the test quite accurate. my C is the highest, followed by S then I and lastly D. i m not the direct kind. for example, a group of us going out for lunch, i wont be the one deciding what to eat. only sometimes with those very slow and indecisive people. like yesterday dinner, my mum kept changing table cos she couldnt make up her mind. others were looking at us cos the three of us kept moving here and there. in the end when she wanted to go back to the previous table, its taken up by someone else. so i just sat down and they also sat down with me. i m not those very high I people cos i want to be alone sometimes. i m still able to survive without company sometimes. i m quite a S person cos i fear uncertainty. but i dun like to have the same routine everyday. i m not patient also. i m a high C person cos sometimes i cant sleep until i have placed my things in the correct way. and all my things must be placed correctly. sometimes my mum blur blur, put my shirt at the wrong place, i will make a big fuss one. my pyjmas is one corner, my uniform is another and in my closet, all the clothes are in order. from sleeveless to sleeve to long sleeve then skirt from shortest to the longest followed by dress. on my bed, my soft toys also sit at the fixed position everyday. especially my giugiu, she must be beside my big pillow at that corner specially for her. cos i used to think that the other soft toys will bully her. thats quite dumb but used to the idea already.

later i shall dry my bags and also continued drying all my dried flowers from the concert. the dried flowers almost done already. last two days my parents nearly moved out of the house cos i used the oven to heat the flowers so as to dry them. then the smell not very nice. got one even caught fire. my mum thought our house was on fire. the one which caught fire was one of the leaves. quite nice, like christmas tree when it caught fire. after all the flowers are totally dried, i shall tie them up together and wrap them up again. put behind my bed. =)

I love kitty.

posted @ Sunday, May 29, 2005

quite happy today. had a relaxing saturday. i managed to sleep til eleven. though not one pm, eleven also not bad already. i seldom sleep til so late. everytime before eight i will be wide awake already. woke up and my mum said so late already, the expo very crowded. so i immediately brushed teeth and bathed. on the way my mum kept reminding me what to buy. especially the milo which is one dollar cheaper. before i left, my mum called me aunty. feel abit lah, cos woke up in the morning, the firts time i do is go food fair and try all samples, buy those food stuff. so i went there alone.. quite crowded. but very fun lah. can try all the samples. walked a few rounds and finally found the milo. took bus home.

and i slept til six. went to bedok stadium. took a bus. and someone farted on the bus. i nearly died of lack of oxygen. its so smelly that i pinched my nose hard so not a single molecule of that digusting thing gets through my nose. its from someone infront. all the front people started moving to the back. quite funny. then got this person sitting infront not moving at all.. must be him, trying to pretend nothing happen had happened.

at the stadium, saw some funny people. got this uncle ran with just a short. and the short very transparent and tight. and he ran like a frog. dunno if he deliberately ran like that. but really very unsightly. i saw other people looking at him too. then got another uncle ran like he is about to fall down. quite amusing. but haiya. never mind lah. add entertainment to other people's life. i remember last time my friends used to laugh at me too cos they think that i run like a frog, some think that i run like elephant. haiya.. dun care lah.

I love kitty.

posted @ Friday, May 27, 2005

just came back. so tired. the vj band concert was good. saw my pri sch friend conducting for her section, very proud of her. suddenly thought of toon li. she conducted yesterday too. and she composed a song! still remember last time mep, we had to compose a song. and i did one. i tried on the piano. its so horrible! i cant even bring myself to continue playing that awful composition. i really cant compose. its not hear-able at all. then i didnt know what to do with it. i cant even edit cos i dunno where to start with. i was so amused by myself that time. how can a mep student come up with this piece of rubbish, no musical sense at all. so in the end, i think i got very low for my composition and i chose the leong yoon pin work in sec 3. thank god manz.. got another option.

oh no! tomorrow will be the first sat without co. how m i going to survive? haiz.. maybe i sleep late tonight so i can wake up late. hopefully its after one so its about the same time as co ends. then i will prepare material for the tuition and go to the student's house. so long never see her cos of co practice and concert. then evening maybe go near my house there walk walk.. night time watch tv and then sleep.. must keep myself occupied tomorrow. tomorrow will be all alone at home. i think keeping mouth shut the whole day is very tormenting. dunno how my mum survives everyday. oh, maybe i can go expo walk walk.. join the crowd at the food fair. today i went out alone again and my mum said i m a weirdo. she cant understand why a person would want to go out alone. but i think balance very important. cannot everyday got accompany and always with people. must also save some time for ur own self. spend time with urself so can have some quiet moment and understand urself better.

I love kitty.

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yay! holiday finally comes! later going to meet my pri sch friends to go for vj band concert. my another pri sch friend performing. thats the last concert i am attending for the year i guess. this holiday i shall really tidy up my house. as in my room. hmm.. kitchen, living room and study roon too since my things are lying everywhere in the house except my parents' room cos my mum will yell at me if i dirty her precious room. actually i hate tidying things up. everytime i open the drawer, i will run far far away, wait for any movement.. the lizard's movement. then i will scream for my dad to catch the scary creature. oh.. i shall spend more time with my mummy, daddy, my giu giu, all my pets. oh ya, going to study too.. maybe study at night with yinting at my house or her house. few months back me and this group of pri sch friends also planned to watch midnight movie and chit chat after that. dunno they still wan or not since the poly people started school already. but matter what, i m in the holiday mood now. =)

I love kitty.

missing co.. posted @ Monday, May 23, 2005

so tired today. woke up to go temple to my mum. quite a boring day. and i fell asleep in the temple. went home after dinner to sleep. and now i m awake but my mum is sleeping. its always like that. when i m awake, my parents will be sleeping. when i m sleeping, they will be awake. whats worse is that i dun have sisters or brothers to accompany me through the night.. only got giugiu and all my little friends.. but used to it already.

today i kept thinking of co the whole day. really not used to it leh. last time just take it for granted that i will be able to see the other co people in co room and we will always have practices. now no more. really no more.. dun like myself.. always have to take such a long time to adapt to such emotional changes. and take such a long time to move on.

but was really touched during the concert though many things happened. though seldom talk to those prc but all of them are very nice. like yang hao and ji bo and many others. didnt expect them to give me any notes or chocolate but they actually did. and what they wrote in the notes really melt my heart.. i love them all!

i will still see some of them during lectures and pe. but some i wont be able to see them i guess. different lecture groups, really seldom see them in school.. so sad.. haiz..

I love kitty.