♥ Bernice's site...♥

posted @ Friday, September 30, 2005

stomachache still not gone.. last night was the worst. went to bed at twelve plus.. at around two plus, the pain woke me up. i sat up, couldnt sleep at all.. so went to kitchen to take some medicine for stomachache. but the pain still not gone.. went to my parents' room, wanted to tell them.. but they were sound asleep. so returned to my room. minutes after my mum came in and i told her my stomach aching.. she asked me to rest awhile, let the medicine take effect. so i lie on my bed.. whenever the pain comes, i will sit up and press my stomach.. so this carried on til 5.30am.. which is the time i m supposed to wake up.. actually didnt wan to go to school. but in the end, i still decided to go.. but the pain still carried on.. and i left after gp to see a doc..

the queue was so long.. waited for more than an hour.. finally my turn.. told the doc everything.. like how is the pain like.. and told him that ever since that tonsillitis incident, my bowel movement not that smooth anymore... and all sink to the bottom, cant float at all.. since young, mine has never ever sink b4.. so he asked me to lie down and pressed my tummy.. it was really painful when he pressed certain part of my tummy.. then i told him i always have headache nowadays.. he checked my temperature.. i saw 37++ but he didnt say anything.. perhaps not that high.. anyway.. he said i have constipation.. the headache may be due to the constipation too.. asked me to eat more vege, fruits and drink more water.. and said my stomach got "air" inside.. he asked me to buy fybogel from pharmacy too...

went home.. saw my mum.. she preparing to go out with my grandparents.. so i ate some thing and took the medicine.. and went to sleep cos headache.. but the headache got worse.. woke up and checked my temperature.. it was 38.5.. why the doc never say anything.. took panadol and went back to rest..

now stomach doesnt hurt that much anymore.. but head still aching.. and that fybogel hasnt take effect yet.. maybe i should drink one more packet.. my mummy coming back...

I love kitty.

posted @ Thursday, September 29, 2005

yesterday planned to go kbox with toonli, le jia, wendy one.. but in the end, toonli sore throat and le jia and wendy wanna go shopping instead.. since i planned to go out today.. so might as well go out.. so went to bathe and everything..

i wore that pain pain shoes again.. thought this time wont be hurtful.. but was walking half way to mrt station.. i cant walk anymore.. very painful! went to the herbs shop to buy plasters.. and that uncle gave me one huge packet.. anyway, i think i need that many. so sat down at the bench to paste all over my last toes... still abit painful.. but a little better.. went to city hall.. wanted to go suntec kenny rogers.. luckily i thought of the shutter bus my grandparents and mummy always take from city hall to suntec.. when sitting down i really feel like i m in heaven.. when i started walking, every step i took is torture..

guess wad i learnt on monday from dino and the 4d girls about the retribution is quite true.. thats my retribution for being so stubborn and vain.. anyway.. walked to kenny rogers to buy half a dozen corn muffins cos its dj's favourite.. took a cab to dj's house.. i was so proud that i actually remember his house.. dunno why leh.. somehow this morning i woke up, thought of giving him a surprise.. and the three number just flashed clearly in my mind.. and coincidentally, toonli they all cancelled the outing.. so just nice, i can give him a surprise in the afternoon.. was outside his house.. heard his mum and friends playing mahjong.. heard from him that his mum plays mahjong with her friends.. so must be the correct house.. thought he would be sleeping at home since he two nights never sleep.. called him.. and he pressed away my call.. is it becos he is sleeping?? messaged him also no reply.. went downstairs and sat at the bench.. actually dun wanna let him know that i m outside his place.. but after one hour plus.. i very impatient already.. so messaged him that i m outside his house.. still no reply.. so called him and he immediately pressed away my call... wah.. that moment i was totally pissed off.. i stood up and stomped all my way to hougang point.. was sitting in mac.. drinking my milo.. i dun wan to go home with the muffins still with me leh.. its like mission not completed.. and i dun like.. so i dun care whether his mum like it or not.. decided to go up to his house and passed to his mum.. and also confirmed that he is not sleeping at home.. was scarred and nervous.. anyway.. after that.. was walking aimlessly.. also dunno how should i go home.. was feeling quite angry.. walk and walk.. somehow i reached a bustop.. i know this bustop.. came here b4.. thought the opp side is the one going towards the east.. so crossed and asked one nice and friendly auntie.. but she said its the other side one.. so i had to cross the overhead bridge again.. my poor feet.. on my way home.. finally received his message.. =) not angry or upset anymore.. finally reached home..

was having serious headache and stomachache still aching.. so went to sleep.. dj called.. even though i m sleeping.. somehow every call from dj, i will be able to wake up.. felt more upset cos when hearing his voice.. it seemed as though i havent hear it for a long time.. til now my stomach still aching.. my mum kept saying its becos i never clear my bowels.. but but.. i did.. and she kept asking me to stay in the toilet longer.. cos normally i go in, within one minute i will come out.. cos really nothing mah.. and the blisters on my feet got worse.. shouldnt wear that pair of shoes and somemore did so much walking yesterday.. even my legs feel the strain now.. so today i m not going out.. but later should be going out to buy pens for my dad. i kept forgetting and think he is unhappy and speechless.. so yesterday was a sad sad sad day for me.. actually didnt realised that how come i feel so down yesterday until my friend messaged me.. after replying a few times.. my friend suddenly asked m i okie.. replied yah, i m ok and asked why. my friend replied cos no ha ha and smiley faces in all my replies..

anywayz... today is another beautiful day~ i had thought of what i gonna do today.. i shall pluck up my courage to pack my stuff.. since prelims over, i havent packed yet.. wanted to packed on last sat.. but was too tired and no mood to pack.. today is the last day to pack already.. yesterday bought some tweety birds and hello kitty stick-on-the-wall stickers.. after packing, i shall paste those cute stickers on my mirrors, windows and everywhere.. so everytime i see them i will smile and feel happy.. which means i should paste all over my house.. so i will feel happy whenever i m in my home sweet home.. then i will go eastpoint popular to buy pens for my dad..then go home and watch my xiao bai long at seven.. then set my alarm clock to 5.30am for tomorrow.. sigh..

I love kitty.

posted @ Wednesday, September 28, 2005

sunday went out with en qi and toonli. went to buy wendy's present. its charles and keith handbag. very sweet and cute. got flowers on it.. and its pink. like alot, but dun think i will buy. then went to fry ice cream with toonli. very fun. think we ate alot. when u see all the plates and bowls, u wont think that actually two person are eating.. perhaps three or four. really horrible. both of us were horrified too. but really very fun cos my first time eating. and we took alot of waffles and waffle sticks.. if we see a new one passing by, we will immediately grab it. after one hour, we left. very full..

yesterday went out with my mummy in the morning to have breakfast. then went home.. headache.. so went to sleep. but headache still not gone, so woke up to take medicine. received a message from milly at five. luckily her message came at that time, if not i will be late for the 4d gathering. on the way there, my feet got blisters. huge one.. super huge.. so went to city link to buy shoes from charles and keith since en qi gave me the discount coupon.. wanted to buy that pair on sunday.. and i finally bought it.. the 4d girls went to kenny rogers to eat and had a nice chat there.. then we left at around nice plus.. my feet still hurt alot.. cos the blisters are already there.. all on my last toes.. very painful... and still have to walk all the way from suntec to city hall station.. finally reached home.. went to bathe and helped my dad type something..then went back to my bedroom to poke my blisters with needles.. really very huge.. its like covering the whole of my last toes.. forming a huge float around them. front and back.. think now better.. i dun care, later i go out with toonli, wendy, lejia, i will still wear that pair of shoes..

I love kitty.

posted @ Tuesday, September 27, 2005

I love kitty.

posted @ Sunday, September 25, 2005

yesterday morning met yinting to exercise. but she wasnt feeling too good. couldnt find her all of a sudden. looked for her and saw her coming out of toilet. was laughing at her cos i thought she went to make big business. then after that couldnt find her again. saw her lying on the bench with her arms on her forehead. i was shocked. so we left. we stopped at this coffee shop cos she couldnt walk any further. then we took a cab and i see her home..

after that noon, went to kbox with my classmates at suntec. past by this hello kitty shop. went in and saw those machines. so i chose the charmmy kitty one and insert two dollar coins. there are many different kinds. all white in colour except one black one. was hoping i wont get the black one while i turned. and i saw many white ones inside the machine. but in the end, i got the black one. was rather disappointed and i was late for an hour.. but maybe its fated and i am beginning to like the black one. actually its rather cute also lah.. had a great time with my classmates.. got jia qi, jia xin, pei fen, victoria, chen li.

then left early cos i thought i m meeting fz at seven at somerset. but when i called her, just realised we are supposed to meet at seven at simei station. so in the end i met her at lavendar.. she saw her jc friends on the train. and we decided to go marche to have dinner together. coincidentally, her jc friends having class gathering at marche too. so we walked there together. reached marche and there was a super long queue.. but her friends had extra seats so both of us tagged along and went in without queueing.. that time we were really very happy.. happy to see others queue like hell and we can just go in immediately once we reached. but was rather awkward. her friends having class gathering and we just sat at their table too. two of us ate alot. was quite surprised that her friends never share food. they each ordered their own and some even ordered the same food. anyway, both of us shared and tried many different food. went to bill. expected the total bill to be fifty plus.. but it turned out to be thirty plus. so both of us very happy.

then went to meet joyce at ten and went to kbox at cine. it was freezing cold there. really. i can feel my stomach trembling and my legs shaking whenever i stood up.. three of us had a great time together.. we left that place at around two plus in the morning.. while looking for cab, we saw two taxi drivers fighting on the road.. was very scarred.. quickly walked away and took a cab home.. just nice when i was about to reach home, my daddy called.. so i asked him to bring me up.. maybe its telepathy.. he knows when i reaching home..

actually i m tired.. but i cant sleep alot.. today had an unexpectedly quiet saturday... if i knew earlier.. i would have gone out with my mummy... wanted to pack my stuff all by myself, but til now, i still refuse to make the first move.. was watching this japanese show.. quite nice.. and touching too.. today really very quiet.. i m not used to it.. i m beginning to be scarred too.. got occassional phone calls. mostly from my little cousin wei wei.. call to irritate me only.. cos my mum went out with my small aunt.. so hasnt reached my grandma house yet.. and he missed my mummy alot.. so kept calling my house to ask where my mummy is.. stupid boy.. just called to ask for my mum then hang up.. i was a little hurt.. and he asked me to go grandma house.. asked him why and he said he wants to give me a snake.. thought he would say something like.. oh, he wants to share with me his sweets or watch la pi xiao xin with me.. tonight .. no.. should be tomorrow 1.30am i might be going to airport to see my cousin off..

I love kitty.

posted @ Wednesday, September 21, 2005

was walking to school for physics paper in the morning with sueling.. she mentioned about physics s. suddenly i remembered my chem s is today! after my physics. oh no.. how can i forget my own exams.. haiz.. i was so worried after realising.. even when i was doing the physics paper, the thought of chem s paper later crossed my mind.. i really really dun wanna go for it.. but no choice.. after physics, had lunch with lin jun. and i told her.. this is probably the last few times where we can have lunch together in the school canteen.. always asking each other to decide what to eat.. one of us will give a few options and the other will make a choice.. and i dun like to be the one making the final decisions.. perhaps after our As, i wont be able to see my classmates anymore.. somehow.. i m quite affected by the thought.. i dun wan them to be those who just walked into my life and disappear after that.. like bypassing.. all the good and bad memories with them are still fresh and clear in my mind..

just now read an online story.. was touching.. but i dunno the ending cos have to buy the book.. was reading it with boy boy bear bear... think he was touched too..

I love kitty.

posted @ Monday, September 19, 2005

today went to temple.. pay respect to my grandma. my dad brought us to sempang bedok. no vegetarian food there. no nice fruit stall.. only shop and save. so we just bought a few fruits. went to temple there and bought the mooncakes from there. so we displayed our things. looking around us, others bought so much food.. got different kinds of mooncakes somemore.. ours only a few fruits.. my mum and i were laughing while we displayed things out.. after a while, my mum and i tossed coin, see whether my grandma had finished eating.. and she had.. my mum was saying.. how come today so fast.. and i replied her.. so little food, of cos fast, somemore all fruits.. just take and hold them can already..

after that we were supposed to go to my uncle's house to collect wedding cakes.. but i didnt go.. cos supposed to study. but in the end, after my parents left, i slept all the way.. today is my parents' wedding anniversary.. i let them have dinner together.. hee hee..

I love kitty.

posted @ Tuesday, September 13, 2005

today's maths and bio papers are soooo hard... =(

I love kitty.

posted @ Thursday, September 01, 2005

today my mum went out with my grandma and grandpa. its their weekly outing.. just that they changed to wed instead of thurs cos thurs is teachers' day holiday, so my cousin will go to my grandma's house, so she cannot go out.. so i called yin ting last night, asked her to study with me tomorrow outside cos i dun wan to be alone at home.. so i abandoned giugiu and bear bear.. went out with my mum but she went to meet my grandparents while i went to starbucks at east point.. so long never go there already and drink the coffee too. found a nice table and settled down. yinting took ages to come.. finally after more than one hour, she appeared. long time never see her and tok with her..

then i received a message from pei qing saying fengzhi is in hospital now, got dengue fever.. so asked me if i free to visit fengzhi. i was rather shocked.. why at this point in time? fengzhi so poor thing.. so i told yinting and we decided to go with pei qing after she comes back from raffles city to make her specs.. so yinting left with her mum and bro.. and i was alone again.. then when she came back, we met pei qing and went to buy sunflower and sweets for fengzhi..

saw her.. she was quite red.. and her soles and palms were totally red.. and swollen.. her current classmates came too.. haiz.. really scary.. so unexpected.. its like, there is nothing u can do to cure it or prevent it..and u dunno when u will get it... its all of a sudden.. and if u really get it, there is no one to blame.. really scary.. but had a nice long chat with her.. see tomorrow peiqing got go visit her or not.. will join her since cgh is near to my house..

really like my pri school friends.. they are really whom i call true friends.. we are always there to support each other whenever someone needs it.. i always feel close talking to them.. after knowing each other for more than a decade, somehow will know how each other feel and what are they thinking of.. also their character.. i think that kind of feeling very nice.. though not always together and people do change, the character somehow is still there.. just like in pri sch.. and whats best is that all of us stay in simei.. so when bored can call each other for meal, there is higher possibility that i will get someone to accompany me rather than asking my other friends.. really.. with them around.. they make my childhood life, growing up period and teenage life a very interesting and colourful one.. it will be very sweet if we can still keep in touch or see each other in uni.. one by one got boyfriend or girlfriend.. see them get married one after another.. attend their weddings and have a table to pri sch friends.. then our kids play with each other and maybe become classmates too.. actually whenever gathering, we will tok about it.. =)

I love kitty.

posted @

not as happy as last time.. more moody these few days.. finally touched my piano after so long. my poor neighbours and her baby.. just realised i only play piano when i m not happy. these few weeks my neighbour keeps playing those classical music in the morning. i bet she will let her baby boy learn piano next time. that means, in the future, when i m studying for my U, its my turn to suffer since they had enough of my playing.. oh no.. and i cant complain cos i also played piano and disturbed them. but it was unintentional.. remember there was once, i had grade eight exam in the morning 9 plus. so i woke up at seven plus near eight to warm up my fingers. that is a must, if not fingers really cannot run.. and i pressed the soft pedal before playing.. and that time they didnt have the baby boy yet.. after playing a while, her husband came knocking on my window. i got a shock.. cos he didnt say anything.. he just knocked on it and walked off.. so i got no choice but to stop playing.. in the evening when i came home, i saw a note on my door. it said something like.. pls be more considerate, there are people working night shift and need to sleep. and with underline cap letters for some important words.. till now still dunno who wrote that.. my mum and i analysed, cannot be the other neighbours cos they couldnt hear from their houses at all, cannot be those downstairs cos they couldnt hear too.. so we concluded that its the one beside me..

and now she has got a maid.. always order the maid around.. she always says my mum so particular about cleanliness.. i think she is the one lor.. she asked the maid to clean the wall along the corridor.. washed the corridor.. the day before was worst.. they put the pillows outside under the sun and asked the maid to use wooden rod to hit the pillow so all the dust can come out.. the maid hit so hard, as if she is going to break someone's legs.. i can see all the dust flying out.. and where does the dust go? into my house.. cos they placed the pillows so near to my house.. super irritating.. and whats worse is that she asked the maid to do that every hour.. if u r very particular about clealiness.. dun say others lah.. its just like saying others, hey, u very greedy, eat so much.. when u urself actually ate five bowls of rice.. super irritating..

oh, this sunday my malay neighbour getting married... still remember we were school mates at changkat primary school.. she is same age as me.. but getting married this sunday.. so fast.. think the difference very great leh.. its like marriage never come across my mind.. but someone of my age is actually getting married.. and i m still studying.. but i cant go for her wedding cos going for this island wide treasure hunt thingy... my aunt pulled me along.. actually quite relunctant.. but should be quite fun.. and my cousin going london to study already, so go play with him, if not next time no chance already..

I love kitty.