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posted @ Saturday, November 05, 2005

though a level is just a few days' time.. i still wan to put my feelings now into words.. just now received a call from my aunt.. looking for my mum.. but mummy went to market. when mummy called back and called my aunt, she told my mummy, her husbad passed away.. she kept saying, cannot be right? what m i supposed to do? what m i supposed to do? my son is still young.. my mummy asked her to pray.. she asked my mummy to pray for her too.. my mummy asked her who told her this.. its her husband's brother.. my mummy knew the chances of it being true is very high.. how would your own brother play a joke on this kind of things.. but still.. my mummy consoled my aunt and said.. ya, its might not be true.. my aunt said cannot let my cousin know about it.. but my mummy said, if its true.. cannot keep it from him.. though he is having his end yr exam now.. no matter what.. he still has to see his dad for the last time.. sunsequently.. there were lots of phone calls.. from my other aunts.. from my grandma.. called my jiu jiu too.. he is in malaysia.. my mum couldnt utter a word.. just cannot say the fact out.. she broke into tears.. and passed me the phone.. i told my uncle.. but tears rolled down too..

that uncle of mine is a very nice and mild tempered person.. my aunt is not working.. has a son whom she dotes on very much.. now that her husband is not around.. what is she going to do? i dunno.. the thought of it makes me cry.. the thought of losing his dad definitely never cross my cousin's mind b4.. but now that it has all happened.. i wonder how is he going to react.. he is always so happy, always so yaya and not scarred of his parents.. somemore the family not very well off.. stay in 3 roomed flat.. my aunt cant work becos of her character... she is rather diff from all my aunts.. she always cannot get along well with people.. perhaps cos she is overly suspicious of others.. we know her character well, so can tolerate it.. oh no... how how how.. i dunnoo... had been with my cousin since the day he is borned.. still remember i used to like him alot.. always carry him around.. take care of him at my grandparents' house every sat.. cos i like babies alot.. that time i was still in primary school.. i watch him grow.. really feel very sad that this has happened to his family... just saw the two of them on the celebration dinner for my grandpa's bday last sunday.. my aunt was happily singing for all of us.. she likes singing.. never see her so happy and dare to sing infront of so many people for years...

death is so unpredictable... one fall is all it takes to take your loved one away from u.... my dear friends.. and everyone i know.. pls take gd care of urself.. i cant afford to lose anyone anymore...

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