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posted @ Tuesday, April 25, 2006

on sunday night, i was packing my drawer cos its really too messy. i saw the box of neoprints and neocards. opened it up. i was so amazed. i actually took so many pictures. each and every one is still so fresh in my mind. i can remember the times when my friends and i took the pictures. the laughter we had was so memorable. most of them were in uniform.. i miss the school days.. my sec sch and jc life.. most of them were sweet memories.. but of cos there were bad ones too.. no matter what.. they are still part of my life.. leaving impacts on me now.. sudden sadness after looking at all those stickers.. kept all of them nicely and went back to my room.

saw the two diaries on my shelf. book one and two. book one is since pri school. still remember my chinese teacher encouraged us to start writing. so i wrote in chinese. book one consists of my life throughout primary school and also lower sec. was reading and started recalling how miserable i was in sec one. every entries was sad ones.. dunno how i pull through then. book two is my upper sec life and jc. book two sounds happier to me while i was reading.. anywayz.. the last time i wrote was after my rj co concert.. in last yr may i guess.. so nearly one yr already.. now i started writing again...

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posted @ Friday, April 07, 2006

yesterday driving lesson in the morning. i was so looking forward to that moment. reached there.. printed out the slip. saw its one of my group instructors. i was so glad. cos i never got him b4 and he is my group instructor. so he will teach better. if let say u r not in the instructor's group, i think they will just heck care u cos in the end when u pass the test, they wont benefit.. so was looking for the car. but saw an indian instructor inside. not correct leh. should be chinese cos mr pang mah... but the supervisor asked him to drive me around to find my instructor. in the end, after looking for ten minutes, still couldnt find. i was soooo angry. cos they wasted my money and time. also.. how can they anyhow change for me. so was very angry. how can that instructor be so irresponsible.. the indian instructor very nicely talked to me. but i just said, i m very angry. i dun have mood to drive anymore. refused to drive.. but after that he kept consoling me.. asking me to smile etc. haiz.. angry also no use.. complain to the school also no use. cos i did b4 and no one get back to me. think my temper very bad. but cant control leh.. very easily angry. anyway.. so long never drive, a bit lost and blur. also very frantic. the indian instructor very funny. kept laughing at me. cos i kept forgetting to change gear. from reverse to first. so when i started moving, it moved backwards. both of us got a shock. then was trying to look out of the window to see how much space between my car and the kerb but in the end, forgot that there is still the window there. so knocked against it. test is still far away.. was hoping that i could get an earlier one so i wont have to wait.. cos one month only and i cant really drive..

today work is shitty again.. cos of that assisstant manager again. cos i asked her to return a call for me yesterday morning. called to remind her in the morning cos i was going driving, so not working. she promised me said can. in the end, the person called again today and looked for me. she said as if i m very irresponsible cos i did promised her my superior will call her yesterday morning. so i confronted the ass. manager. she said she asked mrs wong to do it. so went to asked mrs wong to do it faster. but dunno whats wrong with the ass. manager. she screamed and yelled at mrs wong to come and see her. crazy one leh.. she kept saying she asked mrs wong to do it.. and said mrs wong do things very slow etc.. ridiculous.. i said i asked u to call her by morning.. and stop scolding mrs wong.. she got many things to do. but she changed the subject and said she asked mrs wong to do it.. so everything is mrs wong who is in the wrong.. she is such a useless bum.. useless manager.. everyday know how to gossip and order people to do things.. that time wan li very funny.. cos she wanted to apply leave. but the manager said no.. and asked why. cos wan li going for some test for the police scholarship thingy.. but the manager kept saying no. so wan li said.. next time i become a police, i will surely arrest u. the manager still yaya.. said arrest arrest lo, she go tok to the president.. nonsense.. who will entertain such a useless and irritating pest.. argh.. ask giu giu bite her nose..

I love kitty.

posted @ Sunday, April 02, 2006

so tired.. that night rushed the budget report for the youth camp til three thirty in the morning. then went to sleep awhile and back to work again.

the next day, after work, rushed to my ex colleague's birthday chalet. its at aloha loyang. dunno why. i kept thinking that it is the arenda one. so i took bus 12 and dropped there. then it started to rain. i walked til the gate of arenda then realised. asked some passer-by where is aloha. so decided to take a cab in since its far inside and its raining. but i waited for 20 minutes, not a single available taxi. so walked into downtown and finally got a taxi there. the previous passenger just got down. and i quickly rushed in. in case the taxi went off or someone else got in. finally reached there. and i was the first one there. so only the birthday girl and i there. later some of her friends and buffet came. cos gotta rushed to cc meeting. so i just ate the buffet and went off.

i stood at the gate of aloha. dunno what to do. was waiting for any incoming taxi so i could just board it to go out of this place. so inaccessible. luckily one came shortly. but that taxi uncle abit blur blur.. dunno the way. luckily my family always drove by that area. so i guided the uncle all the way til cc. reached the cc.. my best friend there waiting for me. as usual, once i got out of the cab, he started scolding me. then we started arguing. dunno how we become best friends also. went up to the office to photocopy the budget report.. all my effort for the whole of last night.. of cos must print it out for everyone. was photocopying and quarrelling with my best friend again. stepped into the meeting room... and was asked to talk about the budget. was caught off hand cos i didnt prepare anything to talk about.. but anyway.. just raised a few issues.. so went home feeling drained.. slept after midnight and next morning went for some tea session.

i set my alarm at 5.40 am. cos i really fell flat on my bed the previous night. so wake up morning to check out where the place of the tea session is and how to get there. but in the end, realised my mummy threw that piece of info away. i almost fainted.. but luckily she remembered its around 8.30am. so hafta searched in the yellow pages for the address.. so was guessing which one cos got many branches and depts. luckily i got the correct one and correct add. reached there.. luckily saw one of my school mate.. so for the whole session, i sticked to her. after that, i went to dhs co afternoon and night performance.. miss those old times where i was on the stage like my juniors.. actually my tix was the afternoon one.. initially all of us.. as in my seniors and fellow batch mates watched the afternoon.. but in the end.. my the two batch yangqin mates went for night one.. cos after the afternoon one, i met one of them for dinner and went to watch again. but most of the time, were talking.. went home..super tired.. fell falt on my bed again..

next day.. my parents woke up at six plus.. as usual, our morning family gathering.. then went to the far away temple for qing ming.. this yr is soooo horrible.. i dunno how to describe.. its soo crowded that i cant stand it.. the traffic is so choatic.. the smoke around the whole atmosphere almost blinded me.. my tears just rolled down by themselves.. its soo... luckily its once in a year.. remembered last yr not so bad.. then rushed home to bathe and went out of house again to my relative's house. brought bear bear out too.. but he was tortured by my both parents.. tired tired.. superstar show gonna start.. going to watch..

I love kitty.