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2009-11-15T06:22:00.000+08:00

Shit. I fucking hate my uncle.

It's not the first time he passed such criticism. What's his problem? Who is he to judge me? He is not even marrying me, so how does it come to his concern? I am not marrying his son or whatsnot. Every aspect of me has absolutely nothing to do with him. If my aunt is not around, I wouldnt give a damn and shoot him down all the way.

What's worse is everyone is simply keeping quiet. And he, having lived in this world and working in the society for so many years, cant sense that it's time to shut his big mouth up. Is that call negative EQ or what?

I will make sure I roll my eyes everytime I see him. The sight of him just irks me. If stupidity is a crime, I would have charge him to court.

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You know.. when people offer u critics, there are 3 rationales:

1) they are purely concerned. This would be your immediate family members, especially your mummy and daddy cos they cant bear to see their child go on the wrong path.

2) they are being affected by you. Perhaps you have body odour and it affects them alot, so they decided to tell u.

3) they just wanna mock at you. Such people should be sentenced to jail. And what a coincidence! This is the category my uncle belongs to.

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And.. when people ask you questions about you, there are 4 rationales:

1) they are purely concerned and they are the ones you should share your truthful thoughts with.

2) they just wanna know. They wanna know everything about you. These are the Kpo people whom you are afraid to let them know much cos the next day, you realise that somehow other people also know about it. And these people have freaking good memory.

3) they just ask for the sake of asking, out of courtesy. Such people are harmless but they can be quite irritating cos they will forget about it the next time round and ask you again.

4) they wanna find ways to mock at you. U know some people just have the mocking tone when they ask you "how are you?", "still working in the same company ah?" Such people should be sentenced to jail too.

I am sorry but I just detest them. You give me shit, I will reply you with shit too so that you wouldnt bother me anymore. It's to prevent time waste in future in case I need to deal with you again.

stupid

2009-11-14T17:06:00.000+08:00

Perhaps it's the time of the month.. I just cant help finding fault or rather being irritated by people around me. Their behaviour, the things they say are so cock that either I keep quiet, roll my eyes or.. if I cant keep mum, I snap back.

When such low EQ comment comes out from your mouth, it makes me wonder what have u been doing to your life for the past yearssss..

before work starts..

2009-09-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

Went Pulau Ubin with my uni friends. It's my first time cycling there! Surprisingly dangerous I feel. The steep down slopes.. The narrow mud track surrounded by tall trees and bushes... The dark roads without any street lamps. And it's very tedious with all the steep up slopes. What's worse when it rained near evening time. We took shelter for a while and decided to move on in the rain before the sky turned dark with no street lamps at all.

Met up with my JC friends. We had one almost every year but the turnout was always bad. But this time round, 10 of us turned up! And there were some whom I didnt met up with since A levels ended. Now that I graduated. That's like 3-4 years! Good timing I suppose, with all those studying overseas back in SG for holiday.

Went to Serangoon Broadway to take family pics again. It's freaking EX!! I cant believe so many people actually took the pics there. Luckily I took some at Suntec already. Though they said the quality differs with the price, to me, it's all the same. I cant tell the difference. And as long as it looks nice and presentable on the wall or on the desk, it's alright! Who will examine those pics with microscope..

Gonna start work tomorrow! I am excited! :D

mummy's bday

2009-09-17T08:14:00.000+08:00

It's my mummy's bday! I totally forgot till a few days ago. Luckily I bought Clinique set from the JB trip, can just treat it as bday present. And I thought of bringing her for a massage spa during the day.

On the way to Changi Airport T3...

After the scrub, massage and steam bath.. The lady is power manz. Blue-black appeared on my both shoulders the very night..

On the way back home..

My daddy came to fetch us to ECP for seafood dinner..

Asked my daddy to take pics for me.. He always give no warning before snapping..

Today is their 31st wedding anniversary! :)

I hope we dont look alike.

I wanna look like my daddy more! Except for his turkey-like neck..

Look at the bday auntie.. omg.

My mummy and I always say daddy's neck is like those of the turkey's. Thin, saggy, flabby.. See, I can just pull the top layer skin and it wont fall back after I release.

My daddy didnt even realised I pulled his neck and took a pic of it. But my mummy was trying to tell on me.. She was trying to tell my daddy that I pulled his neck and took a pic of it.. So mean of her.. Look at my daddy.. He's still laughing away.. Dumb Dumb one..

lala!

2009-09-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

Tired. The tiredness I experienced cant be recovered just by sleeping 48 hours one shot. Recalling back, I guess its the one-after-another events that makes my life goes on and on without a pause for me to rest. Hullabaloo followed by my step-grandma's funeral...

I am really glad to have the support of my friends for Hullabaloo! My pri sch friends, my sec sch friends, my uni friends, thanks for coming down to take part! :) I know many of them just aint the sporty kind and many stay as far as bishan, bt batok; they took part not because of the prizes but just to show support for me. I feel that their support and attendance are the greatest consolation I get from organizing this event.

Met up with my internship ex colleagues. I am glad that the few of us still keep in touch with each other and occasional meet-ups to update each other with our lives always put a pause to my life. Listening to stories of other people while having dinner never fail to produce the effect of pulling me out of the "me-world". It makes me realise that other people are going through rough patches as well, other people are going through much worse feelings, or other people are adopting such positive attitude which I should too.

The long awaiting JB trip! I was so looking forward to it. It was quite a rush one for me cos after the tiring funeral, I had to give make-up tuition lessons for my tutees and meet up with my ex intern colleagues, didnt have much time to prepare for the JB trip. I know there's nothing much to prepare physically. But I like to do mental preparation. Thinking of what to bring, what to do, what time to set off from home etc.

In the end, on that day, I forgot to bring along Lynette's present, gotta rush back home to take it. My mummy suddenly called me to remind me that my passport is going to expire in Nov. By right the expiry date should not be less than 6 months later. I already prepared myself for the worst which is to go back to SG alone. I was late. I forgot to withdraw money to change into RM.

By the time we reached SG, it was past midnight and lynette's bf drove us all home.

Fengzhi invited us to her house before she leaves for Aus coming Fri again. It was a fun and laughter-filled night! Thought it's always the few of us attending such gathering, I feel it's enough. As long as the few of us continue to support such gathering, perhaps in future more pri sch friends will turn up. :)

We played drinking game intro by Fengzhi, Indian Poker and some mining game. It's the first time drinking with pri sch friends and it's good that almost all of us are still staying in Simei.

This is Fengzhi's LuLu, not my Dudu. Our christmas present 2008. :)

ramblings

2009-09-07T04:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my daddy mummy and i reached the funeral only in the late evening. The moment I steped into the vicinity and being seen by those aunties, comments just flowed out from their mouths.

"remove your earrings."

"quick go and change into the white top."

By the way, I have been showing respect by wearing only white and black. And I always wear a cardigan over everyday since 4 days ago, fearing that sleeveless or strips are too much for my outdated elderly to take it.

"no need to change lah, she is wearing white already mah."

"go change, if not later people say you very vain"

I am in my twenties, I am a female. It's natural that I dress up. By dressing up, I am showing respect to myself and to others also. Do I have to look very shabby, haggard, listless because it's funeral? I think it's always impt to look presentable regardless of the occasion. And I think I look presentable enough. I cant help it when my wardrobe is just filled with nicer clothes and I dont buy those round neck plain tshirt.

Okies, nvm about that. I went up to change still. But when I reached my grandpa's place, those super old generation aunties said what i am wearing is fine. It's already white and black. Why is there a need to change.

YES, why is there a need to change? And WHY are people telling me different things. Very fun to keep bothering people and causing them inconvenience is it? Why must they make other's unhappy when they should be grateful when people even attend the funeral? Many people aint very willing to even attend the funeral cos it's the step-family. But because my grandpa is still around, they just wanna show him respect.

She is my step-grandma. My paternal grandma has already passed away. I am kind enough to make a trip down to pay a visit. Those step-aunties are still asking me to change this, remove that etc.

When I was chit chatting out there with my younger male cousin and nephews, my step aunt came shouting, "xiao jie men! go serve visitors drink when they come." Isnt it very obvious that she is just pinpointing me only? All males there except me. In the end, I just went to take drinks for myself and continue to chit chat.Since when they treated me like their niece or granddaughter. OKay, put aside the relationship, even as a normal human, I dont think they have shown me any respect. Then dont expect any respect from me.

And my late step-grandma's own siblings are irritating as well. There's still uncle who kept ensuring my daddy come. When my daddy didnt turn up, he called him. When he saw me, he asked "your daddy never come ah?" So desperate for my daddy's attendance. And yesterday when my daddy came, he said in a very sarcastic tone, "wah, wear so nice today ah?" Implying my daddy didnt even bother to wear the white round neck tshirt provided and putting on the lil piece of cloth on the sleeve.

So concerned for his own sister, wanna ensure everyone put on the lil piece of cloth for her, wanna ensure she is not being shortchanged, then when she was ill, how come none of her siblings turn up to take care of her or even visit her?

Now I understand why my daddy said he is just disgusted by the whole thing. I believe what he experienced is 100000X worse than what i have seen and experienced.

And yes, they are the ones who intrude into other people's family, stealing all the attention, on what ground do they expect us to even contribute or feel sympathetic towards them. What's even more unjustified when they are so mean to the rightful wife, rightful sons, rightful daughters and rightful grandchildren? And since when they care for the family? Thus far, they bring us trouble only.

When they see my maternal grandma, aunts and uncles come, they are so polite, courteous and delighted. But I know deep in their heart, they are happy cos my maternal side will contribute money. MONEY. I saw my grandpa's eyes following me when I was holding on to the stack of 50 dollars, walking towards the booth. And my step-uncle... I havent even handed over the money, he just snatched the money from me at the booth. So uncivilised and barbaric of him. And he isnt the one collecting anyway, its the lady who keeps a record and count the money. So he snatched the money from me for what.

I blame them, I blame them for leaving such an ugly meaning to family in my mind.

stupid

2009-09-06T10:12:00.000+08:00

My step-grandma just passed away. She had been ill for more than a year, with her condition deteriorating day by day. She was left with bones and skull before she left. Though we werent close, I did feel a lil upset. No matter what, it's still someone whom I know and interacted with before died. When the doc told us it's within these few days, those countable moments with her just flashed back. Offering egg roll to me during cny, giving me red packet during cny, asking me to have the steamboat during cny..

My paternal side is a huge family. As you can guess when I said she is my step-grandma. And such a big family makes arranging for funeral a complicated and difficult one. What's worse is the fact that she is our step-grandma. The family itself already has an invisible divider. Though unspoken, in everyone's heart, we clearly know which side we belong.

Since young, I always know my daddy has this resentment deeply buried in his heart towards the step-family. But this funeral just exposed his displeasure towards them again. From his tone and everything, I feel its more of indignation.

He told us yesterday that the young him needed money for school and his mummy asked him to get 20 cent from his daddy's pocket. Merely 20 cent. Yet his daddy was so pissed off with it and went round the house grumbling and asking who stole his money. He really used the word "STOLE" instead of "took". The indignation came about because his step-mummy took 10 over dollars from his daddy's pocket and his daddy spoke nothing. He said his daddy always scolded his mummy yet she just kept quiet, v pleasant with no temper at all. His mummy didnt have money with her at all. Since young, he wasnt taken care of and he supported himself by cutting rubber tree trunk for money. And I always heard him and my other aunts said that my grandpa treats the people here like grass and the step-people like some treasure. So I am grass in the eyes of my grandpa. Insignificant. Luckily I have my maternal grandpa who really regards me as his granddaughter.

I felt so sorry for my daddy! So poor thing. He's a kid with no parental love. No one dotes on him, no one takes care of him, no one even cares for him when he's young. I cant imagine myself living in that environment. My own daddy calling me a thief when I just took some money to go school because I really dont have a cent with me. And I have to live with 10 other sisters and 3 other brothers under the same roof, sharing things and fighting for attention.

And I heard from my aunts, mummy and daddy that the unfairly treatment is very obvious if we compare the 2 funerals - my first grandma and step-grandma. My grandpa didnt even bother about my first grandma's funeral. Everything was settled and done by my daddy and his elder brother. The step-family side also didnt care much. But now, my grandpa is so concerned over this funeral and so grieved over her death.

No wonder my daddy refused to put on the little piece of coloured cloth on his sleeve. Initially he refused to even go for the funeral, perhaps because my mummy and I attended, so he did show his face there a while. Given his stubborn character, he doesnt want to put tt cloth on, just let him be lah. My aunts are making a big fuss over it, spreading the news like wind. Esp my third aunt, she is like an amplifier. And my fifth aunt, called my daddy so many times for this issue and kept telling him to come. Aint they too overly concerned?!?!?! The moment a few of them gather and start to yadidadida-yadidadida away, I got the urge to tell them "ARGH, just shut up! It's small issue."

The best part is my fifth aunt telling me not to raise this issue again infront of my daddy yesterday night after she saw my daddy's reaction face to face. I rebutted her saying "my mummy and I didnt even mentioned, you all are the ones kept harping on it." I may sound rude but it's the truth what.

For me, I dont mind going to the funeral, I dont mind putting on the piece of cloth and wearing the white top etc. But during the first day of the funeral yesterday, I feel I am being watched constantly. Being watched by those aunts with outdated thinking.

I cant use my small pretty hair clip on my hair. They gave me a white rufia string to tie my hair. I cant watch tv. I have to remove my toe nail polish. I cant wear watch. I cant wear my bracelet. I cant wear my earrings. I cant laugh and appear happy. And my cousin saw my hair loose and was tying for me with that rafia string, this old auntie whom I dont even know who, saw from far away and asked my seventh aunt to come and tell us off. She said we cant play with hair here. I explained to her and she said even those red-cheapo-tie-plastic rubber band also cannot cos it's red. Pissed off, I replied her, "AIYAHH, then dont tie already lah."

One by one come and tell me this cannot that cannot. The irritating part is different people said different things. One uncle asked me to accompany some unknown aunty to buy salt, pepper etc. Next moment when I offered to accompany my fifth aunt to get biscuit, the other aunties said I wear the white top with the lil cloth on my sleeve, cannot go to those shops. I feel like screaming at them. SO WHAT NOW? CAN OR CANNOT? Everyone just wanna have a say in at least SOME issues.

I sat there, not doing anything for hours. This cannot, that cannot, EVERYTHING CANNOT. Then ask me to do what?! I decided to go seven-eleven to buy magazine to read. And as expected, the old aunty who kept following my every moves stared at me AGAIN. But I dont care. I continued reading my magazine happily.

Later I found out that she is... my late step-grandma's brother's divorced ex-wife. I wonder what's she doing here. She has been giving her views, mending the money-collecting booth, passing commands. OMG.

I bet later when I reach there again, her eyes will start following me again. I really cant stand such people. Aint she overly paranoid? This kinda insignificant issues with no great impact, just let them pass lah. Is there a need to bother and irritate others?

blessed

2009-09-01T07:30:00.000+08:00

I have chosen some pics to put inside the new photo-film-designed strip I just gotten from IKEA. I know I was a v ugly baby. My mummy told me many times before. Just now we were talking about the first pic below and I was telling her, "my face look very..."

She filled in the missing word for me.. "out of shape".

It just sounds extra funny when it's coming out from my mummy's mouth.

My mummy said she was upset cos her baby looked so ugly.. Everyone thought I am a boy. But my parents still love me no matter what. I see so many baby pics of me and pics of my daddy carrying me. I feel blessed. -beams-

DETEST

2009-08-30T07:38:00.000+08:00

I have never detest someone before. Their characters are just horribly impaired that unless they have some amnesia, if not they wont realize that there's something totally not right about their characters.

Having them lingering in my life is just like a bug on my face. Annoying, disgusting. Only bothering and doing no good.

I think it's time they stop bothering and messing my life up and do something to their own lives. Like transforming from a bug to a hardworking ant. OR they can continue to be a bug and bug into their people's lives. I dont give a damn. As long as they stop bothering me.

So, like how I get rid of bugs, I am going to just get rid of them with a "PIAK" and "PIAK". Here they go! Out of my life.

When it comes to irritants intruding into my life, I am heartless. As usual.

Oh, did I tell you before, certain bug has high influential power? So pls leave them before you become a bug as well.

=)

2009-08-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

My friends are so cute lah! They simply bring joy to me. :)

Dancing!

2009-08-26T10:20:00.000+08:00

Haha! The bunch of ntu graduates wanted to film a video of a dance. The dance is taken from the visa card. Remember the visa ad of a man dancing at japan, indonesia etc.. all parts of the world?

Bumped into them at Esplanade and joined them. Can spot me?

Lala!

2009-08-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

I have been sleeping with my parents these few nights. I think I will carry on with it, quite like the feeling of it. It feels like I am back to my childhood days again. So every night, I will drag my mattress, my quilt cover, my bolster, my dudu and giugiu to my parents' bedroom.

I think my daddy has super high threshold for shock. Sometimes when I couldnt sleep at night, I will put my dudu on his chest when he flipped and tossed. And when my daddy is at work at the desk, I will put dudu lying on his back without him knowing beforehand. But there's no reaction from him at all. He can just carry on with his work and lift his butt off the chair without acknowledging the presence of dudu. Just stand up as per norm, letting dudu fall in whichever way she may fall.

Daddy is v bad just now. I asked him if I can put my dudu in my parents' room first cos I wont be sleeping so soon, got to send email etc. He ignored me. When I asked repeatedly, he mumbled, "throw it away." !!!!!

Today morning, I represent my daddy to attend the Metalworking Industry Seminar. I think I am the youngest participants. But it's very informative and quite interesting to hear all the concerns of the other companies. Some of them asked questions like what if the company pays the course fee for the foreign workers but the foreign workers never join the company in the end after attending the course. The speakers were amused. I think they are of no position to answer that qn. But the lady kept elaborating on this qn of hers. In the end, the speaker said the hr of the company should come up with some policies or contracts to solve the problem. Or when the company hires, please hire those that look more trustworthy. HAHAHA!

P5 qn!

2009-08-19T19:20:00.000+08:00

Had tuition today. Never see this student for 2 weeks cos she was hospitalised due to H1N1. One of my fav students. She likes my phone alot and today after lesson, we took a few pics with the kitty camera. It's always nice having lesson with her cos she is bubbly. My the other student in the later slot is a pleasant student too! Lesson with her is a diff kind of enjoyment. At times she will tell me her school happenings and problems. I really wanna continue lessons with them at least till after their final exams to fulfill my responsibility. Shall see how it can be arranged when my KPMG work starts.

Just now my small aunt asked me a P5 Maths qn.

There are 3 taps, A & B take 3 hours to fill up a tank. B & C take 4 hours to fill up the tank. A & C take 6 hours. How long does it take for A, B & C to fill up the same tank?

Managed to solve it but definitely not using P5 standard to solve it. Hmm.. Maybe I can ask my P5 girl during the next lesson! =)

2009-08-18T12:24:00.000+08:00

Male Chauvinist PIG

A male person who thinks women are merely objects to be used for pleasure, esthetic value or labour.

(Male Chauvinist Pig): Go make me a sandwich.

(Woman): Why don't you make yourself a sandwich?

(Male Chauvinist Pig): Because I'm not a woman, am I?

Male Bitch

A person who is as bitchy as the usual bitches; the only difference is tht he happens to be a male.

He would not do anything constructive, all day he would just say malicious things about ppl around.

Male Bitch Session

A meeting of three or more males designed to alleviate pressures resulting from close relationships through frank discussion marked with profanity. An MBS typically occurs outside in an approved smoking area, in a garage, or around the box of a pickup truck.

An example of a Male Bitch Session (MBS):

Male #1: Man, how am I supposed to get any work done when that bitch won’t leave me alone? Goddamn I hate this phone.

Male #2: I hear ya, bro. Sometimes, I just want to throw the thing on the road and drive over it four times with my Chevy.

Male #3: Well, you know what they say, if you can’t take it, then break it.

Male Egos

the belief that you are much better or more important than other people, or behavior that shows this

Male Emo Poser

Wishes they were emo, but they don't have the true personality of someone who wants to commit suicide or cause themselves pain, so instead they pretend to be emo. This is called posing.

Useless. Such male species should just go extinct.

COME ON! Get a life! Inject some discipline and do something constructive.

Stupid

2009-08-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

I hate it when people question me. Go understand me more before assuming.

Some people just got the ability to make people do work willingly without any grumble. But some people just got the talent for pissing people off.

That's when EQ comes about..

Hello kitty Camera

2009-08-11T19:27:00.000+08:00

I just downloaded a hello kitty application from Apple Store. This application allows you to see things from Hello Kitty's camera. It will automatically detect faces and add designs to them. So dont blame me for not added a hat or a ribbon, I got no control over it.

My mummy and I were trying it out happily in our PJ just now.

And I decided to try on all the photos in my iPhone. But some pics are not applicable cos the heads are too big or the heads are overlapping.

I like this alot! Haha. I think my grandma looks good with the red ribbon on her.

The application added a lemon necklace for Le Jia. Haha.

And I got permission from my friend to put this unglam pic on my blog~

HAHAHA!

Photoshot and Zoo

2009-08-11T08:57:00.000+08:00

Last Sat was a busy day for me! Early in the morning 730am, I woke up to check the MOM website for document to bring to renew worker's permit. Gotta run errand for daddy to collect his worker's permit later in the morn. It was so last min cos the night before when I was free to check, it was already past midnight and the system is closed.

And I gotta prepare things to bring for photoshoot with my uni friends. Gotta bring convo gown, ntu bear, etc. I lugged all these all the way to collect the worker's permit at Tanjong Pagar Complex. After collecting, I need to buy camera cos my camera was spoiled. In the end, mummy bought the sony memory stick for the spare camera at home for me. I still want a pink new camera.

And my mummy is so poor thing. Cos she went with me all the way to collect permit and see camera and I was rushing her throughout. I was afraid I will be late for the photoshoot. And she has to helped me carry my shoe bag throughout. Haha.

Here's pics of our photoshoot. We went to Supreme Court, Boat Quay, Fullerton and Esplanade. It was a v tiring day considering I slept so late and woke up at 730! With all the walking, carrying of barang barang, hot sun etc..

I threw the bear on the floor. My heart ached for a moment. =(

We met many other graduates everywhere. Met this bunch of SBS graduates and they invited us to join them for a dance video. We were trying to imitate the Visa advertisement where the man dances everywhere he goes. The video is hilarious. I shall upload when it's done. And we exchanged our sash with them. I like their striking green blue sash!

My new bf! See how loving we are. Haha. And how happy he is with me sitting on his lap.

This statue is damn hot! Must be the afternoon Sun! It was so freaking hot that I cant really rest my butt on it.

Our second degree! We are from School of Biological Sciences too!

Yesterday I went to zoo with my uni friends. Lynette brought her nephew Bryan. We nicknamed him BoBo. He is v cute!

He is 4 years old! But v heavy..

After the Splash show, we could queue up for a kiss from the seal. Just so happened that the zoo keeper gave this seal a fish before it kissed me, so his mouth and breath has the fishy smell. Gross right? But it's v cute. It really kissed whoever is up there. Even mouth-to-mouth, it will just go ahead and kissed the person without hesitation or consideration.

my camera

2009-08-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

My camera is spoiled. All of a sudden. The screen is v dark. I cant even see what image I am taking. I love this pink camera of mine. It accompanied me through my Europe trip, Australia trip, Hong Kong trip, my convocation...

And I need a camera soon now. I am going for photoshoot with my uni friends tomorrow. And we are going to zoo on Monday. =(

Laziness

2009-08-07T10:30:00.000+08:00

I think laziness is human nature. Often, we want something to happen yet we just refuse to do that single bit to make it happen. Because we are all lazy bums. Or perhaps we are all perfectionist to some extent; we think and plan everything nicely before we work on it. By then, it might be too late. There gotta be some balance I suppose.

Come on.. let's be more enthu! Start working on ideas or tasks which have been kept in your mind for too long.

" Not doing more than average is what keeps the average down. "

changing blogskin

2009-08-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

i was doing blog-hopping so much that i have the urge to change my blog skin suddenly! i think my current hello kitty skin stays with me for years and it's enough already. it's time to change!

in search for hello kitty blog skin. =)

Convocation!

2009-08-04T05:49:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's my convocation! I suggested buying a gift for each other. Our initial thought was getting build-a-bear bears for each other. But the rest of them didnt see anything they like from there.

We happened to pass by this gift shop with super huge bears and got one for each other. Can you imagine how big it is? There're 2 bears in the plastic bag. Lynette and I took turns to carry this plastic bag all the way to MOF where we had our first pay treat from Lynette.

Graduation never felt this real before until I reached NTU once again with all the gown and stuff. The sudden excitement, the sudden happiness, the sudden realization.. All these emotions just came so abruptly.

I got 4 tix for my parents, grandma and my aunt. My parents miscalculated the time. They had been turning round and round NTU, couldnt find the place. I was so anxious and worried that they couldnt make it in time for the ceremony. I saw everyone taking pics with one another, adjusting their attire and hat in the robing room whereas I was walking around frantically trying to find my parents, calling them, asking security guard etc. They made it in the end, just a few mins before the doors were closed for the ceremony. And luckily my aunt and grandma were early enough to reserve 2 seats for my parents.

That's the huge bear Lynette bought for me!

I wanted to buy the NTU bear but it's freaking ex. My aunt bought the NTU bear for me! He's sitting on my bed now. Yesterday I was hugging this NTU bear and my mummy said to me that the bear is smarter than all of us, so small yet graduated.

My grandma and my mummy were hilarious. Now I know where my mummy inherits her funny character from. After the ceremony, my aunt told me my grandma and mummy had been discussing how to wash the pink bear when the prof were giving his speech on the stage. They even compared the texture of the different parts of the bear. The ceremony is supposed to be serious and quiet yet they were discussing how to wash the bear and whether left side or right side of the bear's fur is smoother. I think the volunteers there are just nice enough not to chase them out of the auditorium.

Before the ceremony when we were taking pics outdoor in the rain, my grandma was already v concerned about the bear getting wet.

My uncle came too!

I went to my grandpa's house after which to take pics with my another aunt and my grandpa. =)

My grandpa is a graduate too!

Last Saturday, I went for programme recce in the morning. Happened to see this finishing line at Bedok Reservoir so took a pic of me running past.

And then, we went for National Day Dinner. Was supposed to help out with the popcorn and candy floss but gotta rush down to meet my uni friends.

Too bad Angela couldnt make it for this party. It's nice seeing the professors dancing, trying to get us to the dance floor.

Hello kitty flowers! I wonder how they make it!

.updates

2009-07-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

Ookies! I shall update some gatherings or events I attended for the past few weeks.

On 4th Sat, I went over to Toon Li's house. Initially it was our usual stayover at her house but Toon gotta go back to hospital the next morning. Nonetheless, the dinner at Tong Shui and fondue were enough to compensate. I love making the fondue and fooling around with Wendy. Haha.

On the following Sat, I went night cycling with the 2J gals, their partners and friends. It was really much less tedious than the night cycling my CC organised. Luckily the rain stopped after midnight, if not we wouldnt be able to cycle all the way to Marina Barrage. The next day, I dragged myself to tuition at noon. It's really v tiring!

Last tues, my pri school friends celebrated Joyce's and Royce's bdays together at the kbox. It's really a nice catch up after so many months. And glad the few of us are still enthu in meeting up and the guys also showed up.

I love this balloon thingy. We used them to wave in the air when our friends sang. It may sound dumb but it's entertaining k.

You dont see us!

TADAH! Now you do!

The next day, I went to NBS pre-convocation party at timbre @ Old School. It was v rush cos before that I have 2 tuitions. And I didnt know the Timbre was high up on the hill. It's at Mt Sophia. We need to climb up a long fleet of stairs before reaching there. Can you imagine? Already in a rush and I was wearing high heels. OMG.

Tomorrow I am meeting up with the uni girls again. =D We are going to build-a-bear workshop to make bears for each other. So on convocation day, we will have a bear each! At least something, if not convo empty handed v embarrassing one!

communication

2009-07-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

I miss discussion with my uni mates.

Have you ever had the anxiety and disappointment when whatever you said, the receiving party just brushed it all off as though it is a ridiculously small matter?

Communication just seemed so difficult.

I wish I can stop trying.

-scream-

2009-07-18T02:08:00.000+08:00

It amazed me that I can go to bed at 3 am plus yet open my eyes wide at this freaking hour of 6am.

Have been rather busy. I feel that my schedule is even more tight than my schooling days. And I feel that the responsibility I am bearing now is heavier than my schooling days.

Perhaps the heavier responsibility comes from the communication with people. All these while, I might have mentioned about talking with people with different frequencies. But I dont think I have ever truly experienced it until this period of my life.

What's bothering is I cant just simply heck care and be ignorant like what I always do. Especially when the determinant of my success lies on whether the others understand what I need.

Those of you who think you know everything are very annoying to those of us who do.

-screams-

No matter how big a challenge, how difficult a problem, how terrible a situation, I want to solve it.

SG Idol and Kite Flying

2009-07-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

My soft toys have been in this long cage for some time. Today, my mummy changed my curtain using a ladder. I was applying my toner and all of a sudden she said..

" helloooo.. so difficult to see u all! have to the staircase."

OMG.. i turned around to look at her. She was half way up the ladder, looking into the cage at my soft toys. I was totally astonished and burst into horrendous laughter. She actually said that to my soft toys in the top most cage. And she said staircase. OMG.

And after applying toner etc, I applied pimple cream on my cheek. I applied a thick big dot on the huge pimple before I went into my study room. She came in and shouted.. "Eeee... Eeee. Eeeee.." with an extremely disgusted face while staring at me. Can you imagine all the question marks above my head? She actually thought that the pimple cream is my pimple pus. OMG.

Some updates...

I went to support Wan Li's friend for Sg Idol last tues. So many contestants. And some contestants brought 10 supporters. We supporters waited at this holding area. When Wan Li's friend was about to go into the audition room, we followed as well and waited again outside the audition door, hoping our friend comes out with that slip of paper.

The long awaiting pinic and kite flying with my uni friends finally came. We postponed so many times. I guess it's a very wrong timing. The moment we stepped out into the green field, we could feel the heat biting into us. And there were some netball tournament going on as well.

I was so looking forward to flying kite! It reminds me of my pri school days after PSLE. The few of us travelled all the way to Marina Bay, wrote our wishes on the kite we bought there and helped each other to get the kites up. Once it's high up in the sky, we will cut our strings, hoping the fairies or whatsnot will grant us our wishes when they saw them. Those were the days manz..

We bought donuts for pinic. Would have been a good pinic food if not for the sun melting the chocolate on the donuts. It turned out to be a super messy meal.

These are the few better jumping shots. The rest really cant make it. The timing wasnt just right. It's either capturing us when we were preparing to jump or capturing us when we already landed on the ground.

After around 2 hours there, we decided that we should leave. The sun is really too much for us to bear. But we decided to take more pics b4 we leave.

At night, I went over to my grandma's place for fathers' day dinner. Havent been sunburnt for years.. I have been peeling off my skin these few days. And my mummy is disgusted by my act again. She always thinks that I am the dust or germs generator. Yea, nowadays, I littered my skin on the floor. And I enjoyed doing it. =)

New phone!

2009-06-19T07:35:00.001+08:00

My iPhone silent button fell off. I went to ComCentre to get it repaired. And guess what. They replaced the entire phone for me. They gave me a new iPhone! So nice of them! Before that, I even brought another phone out in case I gotta leave my iPhone there for repair.

I was at the queue getting queue number. The queue wasnt moving at all cos this lady at the counter was asking the receptionist how to use iPhone. Everyone in the queue was rather impatient and pissed off. The queue was getting longer and longer, way longer than the queue for non iPhone users. I guess people are just plain lazy. They dont wanna read manual or go to apple website to watch the demo. They just want the shortest way out. Benefitting themselves at the expense of other people's time. So irritating.

Many people always questioned, "iPhone good meh?" My ans is yes! Not only because they replaced the whole phone for me okay. Because.. I can add applications as and when I want. Some applications are really useful for me like those that allows me to keep track of my expenses. And I can simply upgrade my software from apple website. The new 3.0 allows MMS and some other improvements.

=)

2009-06-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Out of the blue I realized I had enough of sleeping on the floor. The very next day, I went to Ikea with my mummy for lunch and bought this net thingy to contain my soft toys. My heart was aching when I was squeezing those soft toys that I treasure more through the small opening into the net.. namely those at the bottom cos I ranked them according to my preference. I know I am biased. I have always been. Haha. Anywayz, they are at the bottom so that I can take them out easily and it's within my vision.

Sat, I went Jurong Bird Park with Wan Li. Super long queue cos it's actually a blood donation event. The journey to Boon Lay.. omg.. I dont know if I should feel terrible or excited. But the moment I alight and stepped into the bus interchange, memories of my NTU days just flashed back scene after scene. I do miss those days.

We did hanna on our leg. =)

This pic was taken during the free photo taking session and HP only printed one for us. I gave them my camera memory card, requesting them to print for me one more so that Wan Li and I can have one each, they printed for us 5 pics including other pics in my camera. So nice of them. =)

Some irritating indian men came knocking against Wan Li and just knocked us out so that they could watch the bird show. So rude of them. I feel like scratching them from behind with my nails. HAha.

At night, we celebrated Desmond and Jia Jin's bday @ Geylang Yong He. And we sang bday song for them there too. =)

Sunday, I had tuition with the little girl again. She is irritably cute.

" Teacher, how come your cheeks got holes? What are they?"

"Pores."

"What's inside?"

"OIL LAH!"

She really got a shock and responded with a disgusted "EEEEK!"

I was speechless.

After tuition, I headed to airport to see Jason off. Guess it's all the past sending-offs that sorta made me more immune to emotional attack. But imagining myself flying off to study for one year or so, nono, I think even two months, it still made me feel that it's impossible. I dont think I am strong enough to do that. There are so many things in Singapore that are holding me back.